Time actually flies so fast. I just can't understand why whenever we feel so happy, the clock speeds like 200 kilometers per hour. The feeling of euphoria and the excitement of a magical moment, suddenly turns every second into a Ferrari ride, unable to slow down in a "Between Life and Death" race.
Sigh. How I wish I could stop the clock's hands and just be with him forever.
Long distance relationships. Yes. Risky, atypical, scary, difficult, stressful, yet adventurous and challenging. You'll never understand how and why these happen, unless you, yourself will experience one.
How do people, who live miles apart, fall in love with each other? I don't know... MAGIC?
There are lots of reasons why persons end up in a far far away love affair. Demand of work, moving out, finding love at a different place, coincidence, but the most, DESTINY.
I, myself is a victim of the undefined word, LOVE. I never thought of falling for someone distant, but not that quite far from where I actually live. We're still in the same country, but in a different place.
We never actually met at first. We just communicate - endless talks, chats, texts, exchanging pictures, and facebook. We never skyped, cause he's not into it. He's kind of shy, and he doesn't know how to act in front of a live camera.
Everything seemed so vague. The first question that actually popped into my mind is, HOW CAN YOU LOVE A PERSON YOU HAVEN'T MET? I heard him breathe, slow, deep, sighing. I moved the phone closer to my ear, it's as if, I am near him, resting my head on his chest, waiting for him to talk.
"Can I ask you something?" he said.
"What is it?" I uttered.
"Do you love God?" he whispered.
"I do." I said.
"Have you met Him?" he asked.
"No, not yet." I answered.
There was a long pause after that. I heard him cleared his throat, and finally, he said, "We love God, even if we haven't met Him, and I do believe, that loving a person is not that far from loving Him. Love is not just about meeting the person before their eyes. Love is about believing; trusting. When I felt that feeling for you, I know, I'm in love. And distance can't make me love you less."
Hearing that, I cried. I can't explain why. I don't actually know if I'm happy to hear that, or still can't believe that the person I'm talking to, is really serious about it. We've talked for hours. and finally, I began to open myself up, and let the worries fly, wherever fate will take them.
He told me that, everything is rest assured, there's nothing to worry about. He's not into a picture perfect relationship, he's into a serious and a REAL one. All he's asking, is TRUST.
"As long as we see the same sky, witness one sunrise and sunset, followed by the same moon each night, we will still survive."
We never lost each other, until we've decided to meet. That shaky feeling when you first see the person you love. That moment when your heart wants to jump out of your chest. That awkward, but hypnotizing feeling, that actually makes you want to stay or just runaway. Cold, sweaty hands, and trembling knees that are about to break, stuttering speech and weak balance that makes you want to collapse, not sure if he'll leave or stay. Haha. So funny.
When you finally get through those feelings, you'll see. Waiting is definitely worthy.
In time, you'll realize, Love has no boundaries.
You'll just constantly miss each other, until you meet again.
Counting days, longing days, I should say, is one of the hardest part.
Sigh...
- emptycan
